cry lk nobodys business

for the 1st time, I cry lk nobody's business in inti...
I dono whats the reason 4me to cry when it's actually not a big thing to cry..
But it hurts lor.. People who dun understnd will gv me stupid idiotic words...
N im reli pissed off with that..
WHO THE SHIT HELL ARE YOU NOW?!
n my boyfriend is a soft-hearted guy.. evrything is ok for him.. eventhough he is angry or sad or watever la, he hardly show out his feeling.. but this is wat he is, what can i do besides accept?
n i hv nothing to blame on him as its reli nothing to do with him..
I saw him crying as well, i feel vry sorry...

But who understands my feeling??
My image gone ok..
Yala.. proooove la.. evry1 evry ppl ask me to proove proove proof and im tired of that word..
At the vry 1st place, why must I proove to u? who r u to me? eventhough i wana proof, is not for you idiotic specimen to see, it's my hardwork for my parent.
It's my life ok, who are you to care.?
not to say what, under my no thinking brain, i tink of breaking up.. n tis proooooved that i m a damn ez to influence ppl, n i am not strong enough.. Because of rumours n those shitty idiot on earth, i tink of breaking up liao.. so faz wan dan..
of coz i dun1 la.. but im scare rdy.. how ppl judge me when they see me? n when rumours spread to his parent, then ppl will feel lk "ehh ur son's gf i heard vry terrible girl leh.."
at tht time, not only my image gone, his image oso gone, n his parent image oso gone..
Thanks to idiotic specimen on earth..
Haih.. I hv nothing to say bside crying.. im vry sad.... but i've promise him not to think anymore..
But if u are in my place? how? hw wud u think?
You are not me, you cant understand what im thinking, whats my feeling..
I am vry Sorry..