What am I suppose to do?
Im so sad..
Sometimes, i feel like giving up..
But i cannot do so.. Because im serious in it..
Im not playing..
But im just too tired at times..
seriously..
Im feeling so lost.. What am I actually..
Am I just sum grasss?
im selfish.. yes i noe..
But what i demand for izit too over?
I just want sum attention, not gift,not money.. Isit too over?
Mayb it is..
i reli dono how.. If im gonna say it all out, im sure it will hurt.. But if i dun tell, noone gonna noe..
seriously, i duno what shud i do.......
Why people can be just so happy?

lovie....

The day I started.. I know it's dangerous..
Somehow, I just started it..
I couldn't predict what will happen if 1 day mum noes or huever noes..
I will just tell the truth..
I know being in underground wasnt fair la.. since his mum noe, by rite.. I shud let mine noe too..
But.. haihz.. I need to reli finish off my a-levels 1st la.. n bring back an acceptable result..
I scare ler.. I scare he wud feeel bad..
I noe he will.. Lain di hati, lain di mulut..
I oweys make him feeeel bad, so I feeel im bad tooooo. well u noe.. haizzz..
I duno how long can it lAst..
But i hope it can last as long as it could...
I duno la, i reli lk him or not.. Maybe? or yes la..
I just feeeel comfortable being together with him..
He noes my word in my mind.. so.. no matter what isit.. i will try my best to make him dun feel bad la.. 1 more thing, he can stand my emo noe.. but i think sooner or later, he oso will fan.. so i tink, i shall stop it ler..
n till den..
Love you.. S2...