In this world.. there are many different things..
i didn't know.. I look in too shallow..
How deep can it go, i still duno..
My mind keeps going round..
All this while what I did is wrong?
I really couldn't make it?
Sometimes, i really couldn't find a proper place to lean on..
All i have is just myself..

MYSELF...

FORGIVE BUT I WILL NEVER FORGET

Sometimes, i just feel hard to "put down".. When things are at it's best, evrything seems to be so perfect, but when you thought of things which is so sickening that it can ruin u, it feels terriblely hurtful.. I didnt wanna think of it, but it keep appearing in my mind..

Once, I thought of FORGIVING and FORGETING evrything... But i just realised, I couldn't do it..
izit the environment? izit inti? or izit ppl around me?
what wanna blame? don't blame me, i beg... Blame that "wonderful" incident if u people wan to.. It makes what I am today..You think if you forgive n forget, people will appreciate? these are bullshits... yes, you will get bullied another time.. i guaranttee..
People will thought u are as tame as rabbits..

You treat me good, of course i will treat you good.. If you treat me bad, thats it, i will treat u the same toooo.. Thats y i say la, TREAT PEOPLE LIKE HOW YOU WANT THEM TO TREAT YOU.. it's a logic statement..

I've got it twice.. I thought once is already enough for me, but why am I getting the second wan without reason?
WTH ??!! I just don't understand !!! why statements can be out before analysing the truth?
I stop my mind frm thinking bout that, but i juz couldn't get over it..
N 1 SORRY can cure evrything?... You think it willl?
Wounds are wounds, wounds end with scar, n scar remains FOREVER...
SORRY can nvr cure the scar..
Not that I wanna keep thinking of that, but don't you feel it's miserable?
Why am I getting all these?
What I get still not enough izit?
all those -ve comments n so on, not enough, not sufficient? why do u want frm me sumore?

I HATE IDIOTS HU GV FAKE STATEMENTS...
I HATE I HATE
N I REALLLY DO HATE MANNNNNN !!

Once is like that, twice is like that.. when's thrice?
I just don't know what had i owe them.. Can any1 just tell me plsssszzzzzzzssss?
I just cannot figure it out..
DAMNIT..
Life is damn complicated...
I mean PEOPLE in my life..
Without them, I will be so happie...
Happy like anything...
But these peoples just make my life so ridiculous, full of sadness, full of suspense, full of THINGS-THAT-I-HAD...

To peoples that gv me a scar: I will never forget you guys...

be friends, forever..

as we go on, we remembered all the times we had together
as our life change, comes whatever, we will still be
friendss 4ever...

DAMN IT

Give up not

I felt like giving up.. I felt I have no more aim, no more direction, no more purpose in life..
I felt that whatever I do, they will be no more purpose...
Not to only give up on my studies, but also evrything.. I wanted to give up everything..
But when I think twice,I feel that things wouldn't change eventhough if Im giving up...
In fact, things might become worse..
Maybe not now, but in future, I am sure I willl regret like anything if I give up now... I do things follow my mood... My mood nice, evrything goes well, my mood not nice, I give up everything...

People around can't stand me also at times, but im sorry, I cannot control myself.. I may look cheerful as i used to be, happy like nothing happen on the outside, but deep down in my heart, I am not... I felt very helpless, although people offer to help, but still Im not satisfied.
I don't know why..

Outsiders may think I am a useless girl, a playful girl, a-dun-like-2-study-girl, oweys-like-to-depend-on-people-girl... But who are you to think and judge me like that?? How much or how deep u all know my inner thoughts?
How u noe what am I thinking? My attutude, my character, my actions, how much you all know? my independent side, my useful side, my studying look, you all never see it before..
Im just a simple person, n leads a simple life... so... why? wana makes my life miserable ?


Life is full of suffering, I understand... Life is not a bed of roses, I know...

giving up not,
carolynwong

If it's yours, it's yours, if it's not, it nvr was.

Am I? Am I? Am I?
too selfish, too stubborn, too over?
But this is who I am...
Nvr will I change..
Take it or leave it...
Kip going, or let it go?...
Tired, sick and tired, sick..
What am I, who am I? I duno..
lost in outer space. again and again..
I feel so dissappointed with myself..
vry vry sad, vry vry dissappointed with myself

~If it's yours, it's yours, If it's not, it never was~