What am I supposed to do

See ur sad face, seeing ur tears roll... What I can conclude is, my mind is empty, all I want is u to be fine... My heart feels painful..
Am i really that lousy and terrible..
I reali nvr make a single change?
I didnt wana treat you like that... Don't think that I feels happie while im treating u that way..
Im oso one person that duno what myself want.. I never know what I want... All i want is to feel good in my way... It may sound selfish.. But tis is it... Whenever what should I do?
Im trying real hard to change, n to get rid of my bad habits..
Maybe it is a vry vry small changes, so... noone will realise... For people, it's hard to see just a little changes.. But for me, it's hard too to make a changes, eventhough people cannot see the result..

I just want is to be happy like how it is used to be, before everything happens...
Miss those time... But i noe it will nvr cum bk..

useless girl

Why couldn't i be a little mature? Why am I forever so childish?
It's juz a small matter but why do I take it so serious? Am I hving problems? crazy? mad? psycho? mentally prob or wat else?
Why do I need to cry for this matter?
I know it doesn't help but tears just keep flowing down... I just couldn't stop it.. my heart was like stabbed by others..
I didn't know why should I cry... Why is my heart so painful...I bring it to myself.. But I just couldn't help it..
Im seriously crazy, n im mad... Im totally mad n crazy...
I cry n cry n cry, just couldn't stop it...
I cannot slp... My eyes just don't wanna close, n I just cry n cry non-stop n eventually im tired, till I fell asleep...

Im silly, n cry over things that worth nothing.. I am stupid..........

i should not start frm the vry beginning...

1st post

I don't know what I actually want...
Noone knows.. ='(
The 1st time i had this kind of feeling...
I nvr had this feelings b4...