FORGIVE BUT I WILL NEVER FORGET

Sometimes, i just feel hard to "put down".. When things are at it's best, evrything seems to be so perfect, but when you thought of things which is so sickening that it can ruin u, it feels terriblely hurtful.. I didnt wanna think of it, but it keep appearing in my mind..

Once, I thought of FORGIVING and FORGETING evrything... But i just realised, I couldn't do it..
izit the environment? izit inti? or izit ppl around me?
what wanna blame? don't blame me, i beg... Blame that "wonderful" incident if u people wan to.. It makes what I am today..You think if you forgive n forget, people will appreciate? these are bullshits... yes, you will get bullied another time.. i guaranttee..
People will thought u are as tame as rabbits..

You treat me good, of course i will treat you good.. If you treat me bad, thats it, i will treat u the same toooo.. Thats y i say la, TREAT PEOPLE LIKE HOW YOU WANT THEM TO TREAT YOU.. it's a logic statement..

I've got it twice.. I thought once is already enough for me, but why am I getting the second wan without reason?
WTH ??!! I just don't understand !!! why statements can be out before analysing the truth?
I stop my mind frm thinking bout that, but i juz couldn't get over it..
N 1 SORRY can cure evrything?... You think it willl?
Wounds are wounds, wounds end with scar, n scar remains FOREVER...
SORRY can nvr cure the scar..
Not that I wanna keep thinking of that, but don't you feel it's miserable?
Why am I getting all these?
What I get still not enough izit?
all those -ve comments n so on, not enough, not sufficient? why do u want frm me sumore?

I HATE IDIOTS HU GV FAKE STATEMENTS...
I HATE I HATE
N I REALLLY DO HATE MANNNNNN !!

Once is like that, twice is like that.. when's thrice?
I just don't know what had i owe them.. Can any1 just tell me plsssszzzzzzzssss?
I just cannot figure it out..
DAMNIT..
Life is damn complicated...
I mean PEOPLE in my life..
Without them, I will be so happie...
Happy like anything...
But these peoples just make my life so ridiculous, full of sadness, full of suspense, full of THINGS-THAT-I-HAD...

To peoples that gv me a scar: I will never forget you guys...