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When you say, you must do it right?
Don't say, if you cannot do..
I dislike humans that gv me fake facts just to please me..
Don't have to please me, bcoz I don't worth anything.

Im not sure of what am I doin izit correct..
I do things that people wouldn't appreciate, but I don't know why I still bother to do so. I always say this, but indeed I feel SO..
I know that people will not appreciate, but still I did.. I didn't know for what reason?
I felt im useless, doing nonsence which is nt worth..
Im stupid,indeed a damn stupid girl, hving a too simple thinking.. Not that i need a return is just dat, i duno how to explain..
treat u gud, u will treat me gud? love u, u will love me? care 4u, u care 4me? belanja u, u belanja me? help u, u will help me?..
what are these? these are all stupid thinking...
all this is juz what we calllled naive..
Never think that you treat people good, they will feel it.. nvr..
NOW i blieve, In this world, nothing is always fair..
happy? I don't know what's the meaning anymore..
I tried to, but I don't get the feeling like last time..
Im happy, for a moment or a second, n i start thinking izit real again..
Smile? I can't smile like how I use to anymore..
A fake smile or a real wan? I cannot differentiate..
I feel myself is not myself..

Give and take..
Maybe i take alot, but not giving.. but seriously i dun think i take alot..
When I need someone, noone's thr..
When I need someone to lean on, I don't even know whr or who shud i go to..
No matter sad or dissappointed, I don't know how am I gonna show on my face anymore..
Perhaps, showing evry single face expression is my weakest point.. I won't do it anymore..
I have no idea what do I actually demanding for.. But evrything is just not what I want.. Maybe words frm people, had change my mind. Im always craving for truth wich is damn annoying..

I always wonder, I always think, I always suspect... I can no longer trust any1,not even myself, my choice,my thoughts n my decision..not anymore.. I dono y, but im just not convince enough..
What hv said, hv been said.. what that i noe, I knew...
There will never be a u-turn..
I feel insecure...
Im hiding myself...
Im sick and tired...
I think alot, thinking alot n alot n alot.. I can nvr know how to express..

~everlasting? nothing is permanent, I understand..~


helplessly carolyn..
goodbye